Since moving to the northwest (from the southwest), I’ve experienced fall in a whole new way. The leaves actually change colors here…it’s not a myth, it’s real and its gorgeous! Not only that, there are these things at the grocery store… so cute and fun…pumpkins! All kinds of pumpkins! Big, small, lumpy, round, squat, fat, oblong, white, yellow, orange, spotted pumpkins! I had never seen so many different kinds! I know, sounding pretty sheltered right now huh? Either way, I always want to buy them in bulk and bring them home to go pinterest decorating crazy on my entire house! But recently I was thinking that they deserved a better purpose. What else can I do with these tasty and adorable little treats? I saw a recipe for stuffed pumpkins; what an awesome idea! But what do I want to stuff my mini pumpkins with? Well, I couldn’t help it…cupcakes are just on my brain lately. So there you have it, I decided to bake a cupcake inside an actual mini pumpkin. I wanted to see what happens, if it would even work, and to see how insanely cute they would turn out! I was not disappointed!
I feel like we’ve all been there, that tugging and gnawing feeling of being lost and confused and just plain insignificant. It can feel like the light inside you is burning out. I know this feeling all too well and I’ve decided that it’s finally time to knock it off.
Last Sunday, the priest at my church was delivering his sermon in his usual engaging manner. I’m new to the church scene and on a journey of some sort to find out what I believe in. It’s been an emotional ride so far. When he started to speak about individuals feeling like they are insignificant and assuring all of us that we are in fact…quite the opposite, I found myself wiping the tears from my face. I tried to tell myself I didn’t know why, that I don’t feel insignificant and should really pull it together. I tried to breathe and say “Stop it. You know that you have purpose, you are appreciated, and you make a difference”, all the amazing things my parents always told me and what I want to desperately believe in and to live up to. But those things weren’t true. At least, not in the way I had heard them before. Continue reading We are not Insignificant